What the FUCK.

So today.

I wake up at 1:00 in the morning with this agonizing pain in my neck. Didn’t go back to sleep til 3:30.

Then we go to the doctor, surprise surprise! I have mono.

Oh, then I got shot in the ASS!! Hurt like a motha fucka. Cried the whole time.

Then I go to school to take my gay as fuck MontCAS test…that doesn’t even effect me at all in any way, shape, or form.

Then I get home, slept, which was good. But then I fuckin’ started my period.

so like i said.

WHAT. THE. FUCK.

(p.s. today, i’m compatible with cancer of all things.)

I’m going to be sex deprived. -.-

shawncarmel:

dthedolly:

Christopher is moving tomorrow, and neither of us knew until right now. What the fuck is that. ):

I HATE COLORADO.

I’m so sorry, hon. =/ I love you. We’ll talk on the phone tonight.

Now..ish? :)

Christopher is moving tomorrow, and neither of us knew until right now. What the fuck is that. ):

I HATE COLORADO.

FINISH YOUR GODDAMN FRENCH!

The deepest thing I’ve ever read.

“It’s funny how hello is always accompanied with goodbye. It’s funny how good memories can start to make you cry. It’s funny how forever never really seems to last. It’s funny how much you’d lose if you forgot about your past. It’s funny how when you need someone they are never around. It’s funny how people change and think they are so much better. It’s funny how many lies can be packed in just one love letter. It’s funny how people forgive even though they cant forgive. It’s funny how we have to continue like this. It’s funny how this is far from a bliss. It’s funny how i put up with you but you can’t put up with me. It’s funny how this isn’t the way it’s supposed to be. But the funniest part of all, Is that none of this is really funny to me at all.

The only reason why you can’t get what you want is life. Life is a HUGE word to describe.. You never expect the possible. You never predict the unpedictable. You never see the future. Another huge word is love.. Love is a word that should just be thrown out there. Your life can be thrown away because of that one four letter word. Just think about this; ‘love is putting up with the things you shouldn’t’.

I have no reason not to say that you are why I get up in the morning. Why I breathe. Why I am who I am. You were why I took my every step of the way. You brought me out of my shell. You made everything okay. You made me see the right way. You continued my joy. You continued my hope. You continued my love.. Now I can’t breathe. Now I have no joy. Now I have no hope. Now I have no heart. Now i can’t do this.

Now I can’t stop crying. And it’s no where near a normal cry. It’s a ‘scream roll on the floor cry’. It’s a cry where you feel like your heart doesn’t even exist. It’s a cry where the next morning you have no voice. It’s a cry where the only thought on your mind is dying. It’s a cry where you only ask yourself why. It’s a cry that makes the jealousy inside thrive. And it’s a cry… That no one cares why..

By knowing me, you expect a laugh or two. Don’t hold your breath. By knowing me, you expect the best. Don’t have too high of expectations ‘cause who knows what’ll happen. By knowing me, you expect fucked up weekends. Expect fucked up days. By knowing me, you’ll let me fall.

I’m sick of crying. I’m tired of trying. Yea, i’m smiling. But inside.. I’m dying.”